No. This isn't meant to sound any smarter than it is. I actually haven't that much to say. Right now, a lot of changes've been happening in my life. I'm not sure as to how I should perceive them; if I'm supposed to have an opinion at all. I guess some things've been positive, others strange, some even painful, but... it all seems equal now. Somehow it feels like it doesn't matter. My significance in the world is fading and small, and yet as large as anything in importance - to me. Diving into another web of darkness, goth-ness or whatever isn't going to solve anything. So what am I to do? Go forward? Why is forwardness always promoted at the